Only 3 chemo's left for my good lady wife then I get to be ill and have her make me stuff. I'm honing my bread making skills in the mean time as I was told it is good for developing patience and perseverance. So far these have usually been learnt most by eating the bread which often weighs a ton and definitely requires perseverance to eat but i am improving for shizzle.
I'm actually loving it so much that I want to open a bakery, just a small one and currently it would have to sell only one type of bread as that is all I have ever made but I love the idea of a little home bread shop. Hey maybe I should buy an old ice cream van and trundle around town selling bread, coffee and tea oh and maybe a few newspapers (not the fascist Daily hate mail of course) I could do a morning run like a grown up paperboy- a paperman even. Now to choose a name and most importantly a tune that the van would play when I enter a street so people would know I was there. In the evenings I could still sell the coffee but do puddings too?? Just an idea but if anyone wants to go halves?
I can't believe Rach has more chemo today and can't believe there are 2 more after that. I don't feel angry but I do feel generally numb. I think it's a coping mechanism and I think it is good as it means I can get through this but it can make me feel like I lack emotion. 3 doesn't sound a lot and I know we are so far through this but when 1 chemo was more than we had ever been through together and each one is harder than the last it feels like the end is still far enough away that we have a big fight left. We had some good days and even a date this week and that helps so much but there is no quick fix and no way I can do this for Rach which as a guy is frustrating. Anyhoo this post is largely because I haven't done one for a while and wanted to share my baking masterplan, that is obviously my main priority!! xx.
I'm actually loving it so much that I want to open a bakery, just a small one and currently it would have to sell only one type of bread as that is all I have ever made but I love the idea of a little home bread shop. Hey maybe I should buy an old ice cream van and trundle around town selling bread, coffee and tea oh and maybe a few newspapers (not the fascist Daily hate mail of course) I could do a morning run like a grown up paperboy- a paperman even. Now to choose a name and most importantly a tune that the van would play when I enter a street so people would know I was there. In the evenings I could still sell the coffee but do puddings too?? Just an idea but if anyone wants to go halves?
I can't believe Rach has more chemo today and can't believe there are 2 more after that. I don't feel angry but I do feel generally numb. I think it's a coping mechanism and I think it is good as it means I can get through this but it can make me feel like I lack emotion. 3 doesn't sound a lot and I know we are so far through this but when 1 chemo was more than we had ever been through together and each one is harder than the last it feels like the end is still far enough away that we have a big fight left. We had some good days and even a date this week and that helps so much but there is no quick fix and no way I can do this for Rach which as a guy is frustrating. Anyhoo this post is largely because I haven't done one for a while and wanted to share my baking masterplan, that is obviously my main priority!! xx.
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